Coffee Location: Sitting by my Christmas tree
Today’s Beverage of Choice: Starbucks Via in my favorite blue/brown mug
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Even in indecision, I am making a decision.
Learned that first-hand this week.
Truth be told, I have learned this lesson over and over again in my life, but this was the week when it all clicked in a whole new way. The evolution of my emotional and spiritual self-colliding right into the long list of things I want for my life and business.
Like so many of you, I have made list upon list of what I want for my life. Opportunities, relationships, $$, happiness, friends, health goals and the list goes on and on. I have been filling journals and post-it notes with lists in various forms for decades.
However, over the past few months I’ve been challenged by some dear friends to create a few new lists about different aspects of my life. And this time to be VERY specific. More specific then I ever thought necessary. The kind of specific that at times felt a little ridiculous. But I did it. I did it because to be honest, my way had not been working for me. What did I have to lose?
Making these VERY specific lists- one about life and one about business- forced me to make a decision on some level. Do I want this or that? Is this particular characteristic of my business a non-negotiable? Each extremely specific item on the list was a decision.
And then I did the seemingly impossible next step. I let go of the results and the timing. Yes, you heard me. I let go of the results and the timing. Gave it up to the Universe and God. Of course, I took my will back many times over those few weeks of letting go. Wanting so much to control the outcome- and then realizing that I really can’t. That is madness. Honestly, I have lived for years saying I don’t control the outcome but secretly thinking that maybe I did. (can you relate?)
All those years of not being specific.
All those lists of things I wanted without really committing to them with specificity.
I was living in a form of indecision. And that was a choice. That indecision was a decision. Quite profound to me actually.
Now I am actively letting go.
The result? Already in only a week of this daily (sometimes hourly) practice, I am seeing little miracles. I am being provided even MORE than I asked for. Not always in the same “package” as I had envisioned but exactly what I wanted and then some.
I just had to share in case it can help you as you reflect on 2011 and begin setting your goals for 2012.
Happy New Year!
Break with Bryn" phone call.
Thank you Bryn. I know exactly what you are talking about. I just started my own biz a couple months earlier, and this week I was freaked out a bit as bills started coming in but no new jobs/clients were coming in. Not knowing HOW everything was going to work out, I started to think of all the multiple ways I could fix the situation, and totally stressed myself out.
Today, I decided to STOP. I made a list of all actions I could complete today to get clients and did those items. Then I just surrendered, and stopped worrying about how the money would show up. Do you know what happen next? This evening on the way home I found $50.00. Thank you God, Sometimes I just have to be reminded that you are there and willing to take care of me if I let you. Thank you Bryn Merry Christmas!
it is all possible, right? just let go. I say over and over again “the HOW is not my business”
Merry Christmas my dear! Love getting to know you.