Coffee Location: My Livingroom
Today’s Beverage of Choice: Iced Venti Quad Espresso
I cancelled my cable.
Yes you heard me. This television enthusiast (kind way of saying -addict) has cancelled her cable.
Okay, let me take a few steps back.
When the Lenten season came around this year, I decided to participate in a way I had not for many years- by following the tradition of sacrificing something – in my case something very decadent and superfluous in my life-Unnecessary television.
Now of course, I had a whole formula for what “unnecessary television” looked like. It was so complicated that a friend of mine who was also trying to follow my prescribed plan would call me to ask if he was still on track because it was so complicated. But for me, the main goal was to NOT turn the television on for background noise or company. You know, another mindless Law & Order episode that I already knew the ending to upon watching the first 10 minutes.
I was successful for the 40 days of Lent. And then I found myself going right back to watching reruns of Friends.
Until last weekend when I was hit by a brick. Or it certainly felt like a brick reeling right at my head. In a weekend retreat, a trusted colleague called me on my “busy-ness” – my constant multi-tasking—my spinning like a tennis shoe in a dryer. Behaviors I have been fighting with for many years and have found remarkable success at times. But I also know it is my “go to” avoidance behavior when I am in a HUGE UPLEVEL as I am right now in my life and business.
So the question asked (which came as an enormous brick at my head) was “Bryn, what are you avoiding that you would begin to feel if you just got quiet?”
TERROR hit me.
My stomach flipped.
My eyes filled with tears.
And I realized that in all this visceral reaction to the question, I did not know the answer. Hmmmm…. What am I avoiding?
Only one way to find out.
So in a bold move, I canceled my cable service (temporarily?)
I have met so many people recently who have no cable and only watch television on the Internet. Honestly, I was a Nielsen household for 2 straight years recently so I felt it was my obligation as a citizen to watch tv! (ha) And, I secretly judged those people without a television as either crazy or just not interested in pop culture. But that was never going to me. Guess what- for the last couple of days, that has been me.
Television is not the only thing I do to stay “busy” but it is definitely something that keeps me conveniently distracted from knitting, reading one of my many books with an espresso, sitting quietly, listening to music I love, taking a walk, working in my business, connecting with others and maybe most importantly, connecting with my Higher Power.
I will keep you posted on what I find as I adjust to my quiet time. Would love thoughts from anyone who has tried this experiment in their life in some way- just to get quiet.